i had a pretty hectic night last night so that would probably explain this dream a little .. i always have dreams that im being chased when i have a hectic day

In my grandparents field at night and its a dark cool night and im flying around the field all of a sudden i hear a phone ring ... but i know thats bizarre because there shouldnt be any phones in the middle of a field at night ... it continues...and then i remember i have had a dream similar to this before where there a phone in this field but i knew i shouldnt answer it ( i did have that dream before but it was really short because i didnt answer the phone)

So i swoop down at that point in the dream i wasnt flapping my arms or anything just using my arms to glide. So i land and look its a black and silver cordless house phone on a stump and its ringing.... I pick it up and to my surprise its no speaking ... just the sound of someone or something that sounds stunned on the other line.

Then they say something along the lines of " AGH great "

i guess they were trying to lure someone else to the phone and not me but since i have picked up the phone and now i might rat them out they have to catch me before i tell someone that there is a murder / rapist / whatever he is out here in the bushes hiding.

so i put the phone down and looking all around me seeing where the person might be who is on the other line...then i see it .. a slight glow on the other side of the field about 800 feet away....

i stand still for a minute DEAD still not sure if they are going to bust out of the brush or not before me ....then i cant handle it anymore and like a hunted quail i bust up into the air and try to take flight but my arms are weak and i cant seem to flap my arms enough to get high enough in time ...( i am human after all )

Just then this LARGE black machine like thing BUSTS out of the bush and grabs my foot and pulls me inside of it into this captive area or something....

Then it jump cuts to me being in this persons house which is a weird shaped ... thing... on the edge of a cliff of some sort and they are running some weird tests on me and putting drops in my eyes and all kinds of weird stuff while asking me a bunch of questions. This guy looks like DIB from invader zim

im not really listening because im trying to think of how the heck to get out of here..im busy eying every possible escape route.

So after thats done im locked in the bathroom but the bathroom is the part of the "house" that hangs over the cliff so i simply go out the window haha.

they catch me doing this unfortunately ....so the chase is back on ...

the next part of the dream is basically just me trying to fly without falling

i was flying through some weird under ground mall type place and people kept trying to grab my feet when i would get close to the ground and they were trying to pull me down.

the flying part of the dream though was SO amazing as my flying dreams always are because it feels SO REAL ... its not easy to do in the dream which makes it feel realistic. I actually woke up and my arms hurt as if i really was flying around all night.

i ended up landing finally in a trailer park somewhere on these peoples old trailor ... and then for some reason i turned into ...bambi ? the deer...yep thats unusual.

and so here i am now a deer just sitting on top of this trailor

then this girl see me and trys to catch me and i have to fly off again but now im a deer...

then i think i woke up.

Dreams are REALLY difficult to write out lately i havent been getting a long enough sleep for them to process

I HAD an incredibly vivid dream about the mansion and ...the weirdest effing thing happened ... i go to publish it and that second my internet fails and erases the whole damn thing !!!!! .....what ..the ...hell....

QUICK over view...

there was this old woman in a blood red maroon colored faded dress with a faded black thin belt and black faded shoes he hair was pulled back into a tight bun and her face was the face of a woman who looked harsh and mean but you knew she had common sense and an overall good heart..she was very thin not in a sickly way...she had a defined face...wrinkles but she was a young old looking woman if that makes sense.

there was babies in saudi arabian type head dresses. I believe there was four ... when i am first introduced to them they are floating with the backdrop of a blue sky. They are in bright neon colors ..the only two i can remember right now are neon green and purple.

Something is out to get everyone ... something evil ... im not sure what it is .. but there is an impending sense of doom that if it is human its mind is unhuman that of a rabid beast because it lacks common sense and human emotion...its a killing machine...

the woman as a diversion runs so ( they ) will chase her and not kill the babies.

she runs to a guest house which is on the grounds of the mansion but very far ... it is on the edge of the forest. Its an old brick house lined with vines and large bushes all around it. We dont see the inside of the house but one can imagine its dark and dusty...

The last we see of her is her long arm and her wrinkled hand reaching out from a window in the house. There are weird rod iron bars on the window ... she reaches to lock ( or unlock ?) the window she fiddles with the lock on the window..she screams...she dies ? not sure ..but i dont see anymore of her after that.

There is only one kid left it is older now and no longer wears a head dress they have been sitting in the mansion for a long time it seems. The windows are all boarded up and just a little light peers through it must me day time. There are used candles all over the floor ...

Cant remember much more of that

next thing i know there is a bunch of kids playing in a large white water fountain outside as if it is a public swimming pool . Its near the ocean there are even little controlled marsh rivers around this fountain that fill up and drain out what seems to be every minute... a shark even shows up once and people just laugh at it .


There was also this weird part where i needed to water roses and flowers..because they were (kids) or something they were .... alive somehow in a human way ..and i needed to water them for somebody..i remembered there was a watering can at the old mansion..it was really big and it was brown and white with floral detailing on it. I couldnt find it though ...so i opted for a teapot...which for some reason just wouldnt work so i grabbed a yellow plastic container but never got to water them i think i woke up ????

i cant remember .... much more....Though there werent many happenings in the dream its just  the details alone were exhausting .

Its a bit fuzzy so this might be more like a notepad than a journal

I Traveled All over the world to 14 different Countries

But i swam

a lot of it was swimming

but it was all from my point of view...it wasnt as if i was seeing really any of this as if my dream was a movie where i could see far far ahead no...it was terrifying and beautiful

for most of the trip i was swimming somewhere cold there was a lot of attention in my dream paid to the birds there ...there was these gorgeous ducks that looked like mallards but they had much more glistening heads of green.

Then there were also these weird birds that they called sno quails ...but they looked nothing like a snow bird or a quail . THey had These odd peacock shaped heads with four little things on the top like peacocks have accept at the little sticky uppy things on thier heads had perfect squares on the top. They had a duck like body

These birds followed me a lot when i was swimming through this cold place .. it was a river like ... thing ...but huge...but yet not huge...that makes no sense.

on one side of the river it seemed like there was dessert and on the other side there was a MASSIVE wall of natural ice that lined the whole river that seemed to go up foreever and never stop.

The funny thing being that.... i remember feeling safe beside this massive wall because i could try to pretend that it wasnt really that tall because at the bottom the water moved slowly and it was quiet...the birds sat on this little ice slab that came out from the bottom of the giant ice wall and it just barely sat above water level.. i remember being jealous of them in a way and feeling envious of them because they understood the environment that i was trying to conquer and though i felt like they were giving me company i knew that that was as far as thier company could span ... if i got into any trouble in thier environment they couldnt help me they were just birds .

Thats where this impending sense of lonliness comes from when your in the wild.

Natures way of giving you company ...but company that doesnt really truly care about you back...

thats how i felt when i went to france in REAL life a few months ago ... the people were like wildlife...you can look at them and try to speak to them but they wont help you beyond a certain point they are out to take care of themselves really and its not that they hate you or anything they just .. arent going to abide by some dumb human social code and help you out. They run with a different set of natural laws.

Regardless i feel refreshed after this part of the dream i woke up feeling as if i really traveled these places it was incredible.

i had at least 4 other dreams all of which were really very quick and sparatic and they ran into and out of each other which will make it difficult to write them out.

All i can remember is that for some reason .....man its way to messed up ... i think i can reallly only make a general list of what happened

Taurus drove to babysit .. weird kids...irritated because they lived so far away and i would have to drive back everyday...i owned  a dalmation but and when i was walking it in my old niehborhood in the condominiums i used to live in in MA. it started bark at another dog and then turned into a cartoon and got rabies just from barking. I cant remember what anyone looked like from the deam..but i was sitting on the grass watching a happy family in san fransisco ( full house) then my mom showed up then suddenly snow was on the ground there and she opened her robe at the bottom and christmas carols started playing from them and she just stood there with a dumb face on because for some reason this was an inside joke with all of us and we were suposed to laugh...

OH GEEZ !

that was more exhausting than ever trying to type all that out.

i hope that my dreams start to become less sparatic... but you cant win em all everynight... im just surprised that i dream every night anyways and that i remember it


BEN JUST WOKE UP AND HE SAYS HIS DREAM WAS

" I Was johnny depp we were uh... at this party..like.. and this was like was back in old school victorian days...and it was a masquerade party...only..omg this was so bizarre....only..for some reason.. i just took all my clothes off...cuz im like im johnny depp i dont give a shit ..adn then as we were walking down this long hallway i was this kind of like soldier guy or something like some kind of a bad ass....and then out of nowhere we heard this loud bang come out of this farm...and i walk over there because im ike a bad ass of course...and so we go over n investigate .. and theres a bull thats loose only the bull is made entirely of rreeds and straw and like .... yeah .. its a ghost bull .. "

Me: a ghost ghost bull made of reeds and straw ?

Him yeah it was going crazy.

ME : what did u do ?

Him: i jumped on it.

Me: then what happened...?

:Him: Nothing.. i just woke up when the phone rang



WHOever called ben and woke him up DAMN you ! that sounded like a badass dream !

YES well....after almost two weeks solid of crazy dreams every single night i have decided to bring back the dream blog because some of my dreams have been outright

 BATSHIT insane !

So heres a quick life update to better understand the unsual situation at hand

So my boyfriend and i recently moved into a very large house in Los angeles with about 4 other people

Ben and i have been having VERY bizarre dreams EVERY single night and we both wake up every morning and share about 10 minutes just describing our messed up dreams to each other.

The other day i was sitting by the pool with one of the roomates and his girlfriend and just for shits and giggles and not expecting much of a response i asked the two of them if by any chance they have ever had any bizarre dreams. They reacted to this question by staring at each other and then wide eyed they nodded to me and said " HAHA OH MAN YES ! "

Turns out each and every roomate has had some pretty messed up dreams every single night. One of them included a dead body flashing on the bed in on of the dreams.

(I did some research on the house and since 1960 it has had 19 tenants 5 of which lived in this house till they died  only one of which i can actually confirm after much research that they died IN this house and not at the hospital.)

There is one thing in common though that intrigued me enough to actually research the house lineage and that was not just the fact that everyone is having odd dreams every single night ...but the fact that everyone has at least once dreamt about ...the exact same thing.

EVeryone who has stayed in this house in one of the rooms has had a dream involving a large dark stone mansion. Each persons dream has been a little different but all involved one similarity and that was the mansion itself.

My dream with the mansion was odd...and when i told the roomates they seemed...a little freaked. ( i think they think im a little ...odd now ... )

Basicly There was this giant old stone looking mansion it kind of looked like the one in the begining of aqua teen hunger force ...but not as ...fun ....it was a little castle like

any how this house was midway between heavan and hell and the people who lived there for whatever reason killed people and used human skulls to go bowling ...they would pop three holes in the top of the skull and bowl away.

SO THERES THAT


Last nights dream was interesting and i cant remember to much to this will be brief.

so it started off in my house in Massachusetts

we used to have hamsters in real life and i was dreaming about them

we used to keep the two hamsters in the basement

for some reason in dream they were alive again ... but in the dream i was freaking out because i had just realized in present time that they were alive ! But i thought they were dead ! ( which they really are in RL ) so i was all oh man i have to get them some water !!! they have gone for months without water ! so i gave them water and they drank a LOT and then i had to go leave to direct my film

After i left i realized that i forgot about nez ( nez was a pet mouse i used to have but my mom didnt know about him for a long time because i technically was not supposed to know about him.) But i was all freaking out because i felt bad since he was alive and hadnt had anything to drink in a long time and now i could not water him because i was in CA.

Then the dream bounces to this odd shot of robin williams and jim carrey standing in a church alongside a bunch of other pastors or something. They were in my film that was a mokumentary about church people. The whole point of the film was that crazy white haired character guy from back to the future would go around and interview church people....(sounds like a real award winner doesnt it ? ..... )

thats all i can remember about last night and my fingers are tired .

PEACE !

alright so this is my frist entry and i suppose the whole reason  i am even begining this blog is that my dreams lately have been FAR too vivid and far too detailed for me to even remmember and they are dreams i would not want to forget i am assuming they have some significance to them.

There are a few things i need to say first ... all the occurences i type out here they are NOT exagerated and they ARE NOT made up.... this is all very serious... though the dreams at times may turn out not to be that of a serious nature the content i put here is. This is not a blog for your entertainment this blog is for the documentation of the dreams that i have inthe vivid and maybe incomprehensible detail of how i remmember them. I will leave no  detail that i can rememmber undocumented .  I will make spelling errors to me words are just labels and spelling does not matter. I type in a frenzy trying to rememmber details so you might not understand.

I call this dream
The Elemental Contact

When the dream oroginally started off i believe i had a job at staples .... im not sure but something bad happened and made me want to quit that job so i did.

After the whole staples bit the dream became VERY vivd !!! The dream began beautifully it was summer or spring, not sure witch but it was nice and i was in a georgeous place i couldnt have been happier i felt totally at peace if there is a heavan i was there. It was an old old town with lots of older houses but the land was very hilly and very green . Tree's with yellow and blue flowers were all over but not to much it was more than the usual but not to much. There were very MASSIVE willow trees EVERYWHERE and other large trees that seemed to be at battle with the equally as large brick and wooden houses that they blanketed in shade everyday. Only little bits of sun poked through here and there but where there was sun it was warm. There were little children all over i dont remember seeing any little boys around mostly girls in yellow dresses ones like i used to wear when i was a child. I had someone with me but as always i never know who they are, they just are. I kept on staring at this massive long old brick house/building i belive it had blue shutters. Imagine if you know what it is a town where "the american girl dolls" would live but more beautiful.  There was a quick interlude in all this something with a bridge that led to what looked like an adveturous forest ..and the other person who was with me who i  can not remember we will calll them my guide they were the ones telling me things talking with me like a friend. They told me the story of the headless horseman and how that is his bridge and i began to see the events he was describing unfolding upon the bridge as my guide told me about it... he said that the horseman cannot cross the bridge in  summer only in winter and i then saw what happens when he trys. He would go to cross and he would fall off and both horse and rider would fall inthe water. They wouldthen have to swim back to the other side but once they reached the bank they acted as if they had just been poisened ...both horse and rider lay on the bank wet.. and wreathing around like worms drying up in the sun . I remember this so vividly because it was slightly frightening to see the mad insane look in the horses eyes as is wreathed around shreiking madly. I shook this off though and then i went into the large house across from the big brick house wich is close to the bridge


The house i was in was right across from the brick house but up but up on a tiny little hill so it just ever so slightly overlooked the outside. There was a very wealthy man who lived there but that quickly ended and he turned into just an average guy who slightly resembled joey fatone from n sync...but more humble and slightly more attractive seeing as joey fatone is not attractive to me. He was a comforting presence i felt he could protect me from what i do not know but i felt protected. Then all of a sudden i wanted to leave his house but when i went to there were many many locks on his doors i didnt know why but i was able to leave..when i opened his door i realized that he did not live in the house alone this was just his section of the house. Then the dream jumps from me being in that section of the house to me being in another section which seemed to be a more up to date MUCH larger version of my grammy and gramp's ( my dads parents who i no longer speak withs ) old House in CT.  For some reason it was night time... i always hated sleeping at their actual house in real life because i was scared i always felt an odd presence in their house even as a child who doesnt understand such things. So in this dream i was a little nervous but wiser because i was older.  Grammy and gramps mentined to me but didnt actually say the words... they sent me the thoughts somehow and they mentioned quickly and vaguely something about someone or a dark spirit who comes out at night and to ignore them. Immediately when they said that i got an image of a dark outline of a manish figure that looked as if someone had took a pencil an sketched him sideways sketches with a pencil . Grammy and gramps went to bed and i layed down on the couch and conisdered sleep but things started getting crazy .. there were sliding doors between the apparent living room where i was sleeping and my grammy and gramp's room where they were sleeping .. two sets of slider doors. both seperated by a tv and stero set.

Suddenly the sliding doors began opening and crazyness ensued.. the room my grammy and gramps was in became a Busy E.R dr.s were rushing around patients were comming throuh the sliding doors and then leaving.... two little boys one boy was black with a small afro and the other was a brunnette both ofthem the same hieght both of them looked around age 6 or 7 they came in and started to mess with the stero equipment.

And that is when this "elemental" came in . I cannot remember what she looked like or if she was even a he or a she... she tried to present herself to me as an older woman with a distressed librarian look... with blonde hair slicked back in a tight bun .... or greyish hair.. it couldve been either or she didnt have an image and i believe she was trying to see what image i would like best.... make me precieve her as i choose too ..... so she appeared more often to have the lighter white blonde hair. She came in smiling VERY LARGE scarilyish large..and she toook the remote from the two boys and told them to leave. That is when the E.R disapeered it was just her and I. I was still sitting on the couch but when she began to approach me i stood up.  I was still very nervous i didnt want to be there or sleep here because of that evil spirit that was supposed to show up at night . She told her that i should go with her up the stairs to her room where i would be safe. Without hesitation i agreed. Although ... she started taking me up this VERY narrow winding staircase that seemd to go on forever and as it did it started getting darker the lighting became more frightening. I stopped mid way and mentioned the guy on the other side of the house ... for a second i felt safe when mentioning him i forgot about him ... i could go  stay with him i told her he was a safe peron it was bright and sunny and daytime on his side of the house and he would keep me safe from the spirit. She seemed a little irritated but overly caring and she said...dear hes a child molesterand a rapist...and i just kind of didnt say anything after that and relunctantly went with her.

When we reached her room it was like a weird...dollhouse like place.. it seemed fake ...just like a dollhouse wth fake furniture..overly perfect...this is when things got very strange and things started happening quick .

The voice came back into my head at this point and i dont know who it is ... i didnt see a white light along with it but it was a vision  along with seeing everything else i was seeing many things all at once. The voice who seemed to be niether woman nor man all i can say is it was a kind voice.. a very kind voice who cared about me i felt that it cared and i knew it was safe to listen to  it said quickly to me about the woman i was with " She is an elemental "

I have never heard this word before. This is the firt time i had heard that both in real life and in my dream i did not know what an elemental was.. but i knew she was bad whatever she was

All of a sudden the woman started acting strange she started walking around... walking around .. i was standing my ground in the center of the room i could not move it seemed i just stood there solid ... and already i knew for some reason even before the voice that was with me told me so... i knew not to think only to feel....

The woman continued circling me... eying me as if she was waiting for somethng ....she had that evil snide smile on her face. Little kids appeared in the room ... many  ofthem dancing and chanting some dancing around me.. some of the same little kids there were in the beautiful place before with the willow trees and brick house....but now...they were scary happy...almost as if they had evil intent...

The room seemed to be spinning now but i stood still trying to think of nothng trying SO HARD to think of nothing ... and just feel feel with my soul my inner being... i was trying not to think thoughts i even believe at one time i started hinking LALALALAAL DDOO DOO .. like you would if you were twittling your thumbs.... so i could not think any thoughts...

The voice tht was speaking to me seemed to know exactly what was going on now nand this is when they started speaking to me alot very rapidly ....

" dont listen to her shes trying to trick you"
"dont think feel"
" she is an elemental"
"she is an elemental"
"dont let her trick you "

this mind battle went on for a little bit and then accidentally i thought ofthe letter " I " i said I in my head and she stopped and smiled wider.

" ah she said, you said I "

 i was shocked because i did not know she could hear my thoughts so i tried hard not to think of words but now they seemed to want to keep popping into my head because i knew she could hear them.. i went from a calm state of feeling with my inner self to rapid rapid thoughts WANTING to come in and out of my mind... almost taunting me... teasing me... say this say this 

things start to get fuzzy now in the dream . i cannot recall right now anything else but then i woke up

i went into this kitchen because i had this sense of feeling for some reason that there is such things as elementals. I asked mark my moms bf because he watches alot of those spiritual movies about posession and all that hes HUGE into that stuff.. and when he told me yes.... they do exsist i felt a crazy jump in my stomach....i dont really know what to think now ..that last time that happened to me was over a year ago i had this vivid dream about Bali and at the time i had never heard about Bali ....i woke up and asked my mom if it exsisted she said yes..the next day she got an email from my uncle jim who she hadnt heard from in 1 year ....

he said he was on a marine expedition in Bali.


So i did a little thinking as to just what this dream is all about and i truly believe it was a test ....as to what the test was for and what wouldve happened had i passed it in full i dont know.  But i know i partially failed and partially passed.

Its ironic because i have been more in touch with my inner self and the occourences around me both mentally and physically ever sense i have been reading that book " a new earth, finding your lifes purpose"  . I have been trying to eliminate my ego...and stop thinking with my mind altogether.. i have been trying to become aware...but not a thinker only. Its hard to explain but

I passed the test because i was strong ... the elemental knew i knew that she was a fake that she was not really a human she was just allowing me to choose how to see her.... i knew and i felt in my dream that she could not have her way with me ... i am  a solid individual..


i failed... because i stil have that sense of ego in me.... i coudlnt turn the thoughts of in my head completely and just feel with my inner self when i knew i had to.....i was doing so well for so long it was working she could get penetrate my mind my soul because there was nothing there thats why she was circling me making the room spin making distractions she wanted to make things crazy make me think ....but i was at peace with myself and she couldnt bother me.. then i grew weak something broke the concentraion and what the first word that came to mind ?? I .... the true word indentifying with the existion of ego in the human mind.... i ... that one word excited her so much when she heard me thinking that... and i lost....

i dont know whats going on with me...  i know that i experienced something otherwordly because.... i learnedd things in this dream

i had no idea what an elemental was... untill my dream tought me